Gloomy mood

Boy howdy (and when have I ever said that before??), was this weather dark and gloomy! It certainly lent to a gloomy mood, and with a few other things going on in my world, it certainly led to my feeling like a jackass magnet. The last couple of guys I’ve dated were quite the jackasses and I’m not sure if I remember the last guy I really dated that wasn’t. In fact, I had to ask my friend Cathy why one ex and I broke up. Luckily, he wasn’t a jackass…we just grew apart.

In 2006, I’ve seen 6 or 7 friends go through difficulties in their marriages that have caused them to split up and many of those friends have either gotten divorced or are in the process of it. There are still two or three that may be able to save their marriages or at least their relationship. Granted, I don’t know all the details of each break up but knowing what I do know, it makes me wonder if any of it is worth it. There are plenty of couples I know that are in successful marriages and that gives me hope for a successful relationship at some point in the future. But do I really want it in the form of a marriage? That’s where I’m not so sure. I’ve talked to my dad some about this and he kind of agrees on the merits of having a successful relationship without the confines of a marriage. All very hard to wrap my mind around but still very fascinating.

My friends are amazing. They give me so much guidance with their experiences and their willingness to share with me. Of course, I can only do what is best for me and I have to take each opportunity for what they are and what they offer. The only thing I can do is be honest with them and myself. It’s only fair….

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2 thoughts on “Gloomy mood”

  1. 😦 i try not to think about that stuff(hard sometimes, esp. when u are over 30..why is that?).. if im feeling lonely i go and enjoy something that i prefer doing alone, that way there is a purpose to the situation… 🙂

  2. I would submit there’s a fundamentally different approach to marriage when one sees commitment as confinement. It *is* an interesting concept. I actually had the same conversation with your dad, interestingly enough. As someone whose marriage is on the rocks, all I can say is that while marriage takes more work and commitment than anything else in life – Anything – what you get in return makes it all worthwhile.

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