Why can’t I sort through my thoughts and write what I have to say? Probably because putting out what’s on my mind and in my heart right now is probably the most vulnerable thing I’ve ever done publically yet. It’s also one of the biggest risk I’ve taken. I’ve put a lot of things on the line before but very rarely my heart.
Okay, okay, so I know what’s bothering me. I just don’t know exactly how to put such a large part of my life on such a small thing like a blog. Cathy’s the only person that knows the specifics right now, and as this “thing” has developed over the years. That’s where I am. I’m confiding in my best friend and she’s been helping me sort through this so much. Without just telling me what I want to hear.
It’s a good thing that things at work are getting pretty busy right now. Keeps my mind off my heart and the history.